i would do everything

I would do anything to be loved by you. You could beat me with chains and smash bottles across my swollen lips and still I would come crawling back to your feet. Just for those few gentle and tender moments in between when you look me in the eye and say that you love me again. I would kiss your skin until my teeth cracked and shattered and spilled out of my mouth and still I would not stop. I would pull out my eyes for you, even if all you did was admire them briefly and then disregarded them entirely. If you told me your favorite color, I would swallow gallon after gallon of paint for you so that my insides would glow in your perfect shade. All for you. I would do perverse and evil and depraved things just to be wanted by you. Things that would ensure that my disgusting little soul would rot in Hell for an eternity. There could be plaques commemorating my sickness for people to walk past and leer angrily at. I would be hated by the world if it meant being wanted by you. Just tell me you love me, just the one time, and I would do anything.

I would do everything.